Monday, November 10, 2025
Triple Self-Portrait (Tee Dee Sea) (1998)
Sunday, November 9, 2025
Girl with a Newspaper (c. 1940s)
Saturday, November 8, 2025
What Lies Within Us (2021)
The Threshold of Light
When I first encountered Mark Maggiori’s What Lies Within Us, I felt the familiar stillness that accompanies revelation. Two riders, cloaked in white, ascend a path through a forest of golden aspens. The air glows with that transient brilliance of late autumn, the brief season when light feels like a final benediction. Above them, the sky opens into a deep ultramarine, a blue so saturated it hums with stillness. Nothing moves. Yet the scene breathes with expectancy, as though the riders are about to cross an invisible boundary, one not merely of geography, but of being.
At first glance, the painting seems to belong to the romantic lineage of the American West. To Bierstadt’s glowing valleys or Moran’s illuminated horizons. But Maggiori’s work turns inward. His West is not an untouched Eden or a landscape of conquest; it is a spiritual topography. The title itself, What Lies Within Us, carries an unmistakable Emersonian echo: “What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.” Though the exact phrasing is a later distillation, the sentiment belongs wholly to Emerson’s vision of the soul as divine mirror. In The Over-Soul, he wrote, “The soul becomes; for that forever and ever is the only real being.” This inward becoming—this recognition of an immanent sacredness—animates Maggiori’s light. The glow is not celestial, but internal; the forest is radiant because it reflects the luminosity of the riders’ own awakening.
Each aspen stands like a column in a natural cathedral, its leaves catching the light in a shimmer that feels almost sentient. The riders, diminished in scale yet elevated in purpose, enter this sanctum as pilgrims rather than conquerors. Their movement toward the light mirrors Emerson’s assertion that illumination does not descend from above but rises from within: “The light of the soul burns through the garment of the body.” Maggiori’s forest is that light externalized. It is a landscape made conscious.
The imagery stirs associations with another forest, one far older and darker: the woodland of Sir Gawain and the Green Knight. In the medieval poem, the forest represents both temptation and transformation. Gawain rides out from Arthur’s hall adorned in armor and idealism, but it is the wilderness that unmasks him. The poet writes, “Many cliffs he climbed in that country wild, / often vanquished by venomous worms.” His outward struggle mirrors an inward descent. It mirrors the soul wrestling with its own shadow. The forest is not a setting but a moral crucible.
Maggiori’s grove, by contrast, glows with gold rather than green, light rather than shadow. Yet both forests are threshold. Bith are a liminal space where the self is stripped bare before the unknown. The riders’ white garments suggest purity, but also humility, the quiet resolve of those who understand that enlightenment cannot be seized; it must be entered. They are archetypal figures, pilgrims on the verge of initiation, moving toward illumination that is both physical and metaphysical.
Lowery’s 2021 The Green Knight brings this archetype into the modern psyche. There, the forest is labyrinthine, oppressive, and green with menace. Its vines entangle, its mists distort. Yet it serves the same symbolic purpose: the testing of self through confrontation with mortality. “Are you real or are you a spirit?” Gawain asks, uncertain of where the material ends and the spiritual begins. The question reverberates across centuries and media, answered only in the silence of Maggiori’s aspens.
There is something profoundly American about this reimagining of the quest. The Western landscape, once a theater of manifest destiny, becomes here an interior pilgrimage. Thoreau once wrote, “In wildness is the preservation of the world.” Maggiori extends that wisdom: in wildness is the preservation of the soul. His riders, small within the grandeur of creation, embody the humility that precedes understanding.
As I linger on the painting, I think of Jung’s observation that, “The forest is a symbol of the unconscious; the place where hidden forces dwell.” To enter it is to risk transformation. The riders, poised between shadow and illumination, enact that risk. Their path disappears into radiance, not as an ending but as an invitation. The light ahead may be divine, or merely the reflection of what already burns within them. Either way, they ride toward it willingly.
The Echo of the Green Knight
The forest has always been the theater of the soul’s testing. In Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, the woods are not simply the setting for adventure, but the medium through which truth is revealed. When the poem opens, the Christmas revelry at Arthur’s court is a tableau of order: knighthood, chivalry, and divine right embodied in ritual. But the arrival of the Green Knight fractures that order. Entering on horseback, clad in living green, he brings with him the wild law of nature, ungoverned by human pride. His challenge—to exchange blows, one now and one a year hence—initiates the poem’s moral and psychological arc. It is a game designed to expose hypocrisy, for Gawain’s acceptance of the beheading game is less about courage than vanity. He acts to preserve his honor, not his integrity.
The poem’s anonymous author, likely a contemporary of Pearl and Patience, constructs this ordeal as an allegory of virtue under duress. The Green Knight is both tempter and redeemer. He is an avatar of nature’s unrelenting honesty. To strike him down is to attempt to master what cannot be mastered: the cycle of life and death, decay and renewal. When Gawain’s sword falls and the Knight simply picks up his severed head, laughing, the poem announces its theme: mortality is not conquered by valor, but understood through humility.
Lowery’s 2021 adaptation captures this paradox with unsettling intimacy. His Green Knight is less an opponent than a mirror, carved from wood and moss, crowned with roots and decay. He is the embodiment of time itself: unchanging, patient, inevitable. The forest in Lowery’s film is a psychological labyrinth, a visual descent into Gawain’s fractured identity. The camera lingers on mist, shadow, and stillness, blurring the line between dream and penance. “Do you believe in magic?” one of Gawain’s companions asks early on. By the film’s end, magic has become indistinguishable from consciousness itself. Every encounter—a ghost, a bandit, a vision of his own decay—forces Gawain to confront the fragility of his constructed self.
In Jungian terms, Gawain’s journey is an archetypal night sea voyage, a descent into the unconscious where the ego confronts its shadow. Jung observed that “The hero’s main feat is to overcome the monster of darkness: it is the long-hoped-for and expected triumph of consciousness over the unconscious.” Yet in The Green Knight, triumph comes not through domination but through surrender. When Gawain finally kneels before the Knight, removing his protective belt, he relinquishes illusion. His submission is not defeat; it is self-knowledge. He whispers, “I am ready,” and for the first time, he is.
The forest in both the poem and the film thus becomes the landscape of individuation. It is where the self dissolves in order to reform. Gawain’s armor, which once gleamed with the five-pointed star of perfect virtue, grows tarnished. By the time he reaches the Green Chapel, he is stripped bare. The scene echoes the initiation rites of the ancient world, where the initiate must face symbolic death to be reborn into wisdom. In this light, the Green Knight’s axe is less an instrument of violence than one of transformation. Its edge the dividing line between ignorance and awareness.
This same logic resonates within Maggiori’s What Lies Within Us. His forest is not menacing but luminous; yet it, too, demands passage. The riders’ white robes could be the garb of penitents who have endured their own trial by shadow. Their upward movement through light mirrors Gawain’s final gesture: the courage to face what lies within. In both works, the journey is circular, returning the traveler not to conquest but to clarity.
Lowery’s adaptation closes on a note of profound ambiguity, the sound of an axe descending, the screen fading to black. The medieval poem ends differently, with Gawain spared and chastened, returning to Camelot in shame yet redeemed through honesty. But in either version, the lesson is the same: virtue is not the absence of failure, but the capacity to confront it. The echo that lingers is not the swing of the axe, but the silence afterward. The very stillness of the moment when a person finally ceases to resist truth.
In Maggiori’s painting, that silence becomes visible. The forest glows with the same grace that fills the chapel in Gawain’s final scene. The riders, like Gawain, are poised at the edge of revelation. They do not yet know what awaits them, but they proceed nonetheless. The echo of the Green Knight resounds here not as a threat, but as an invitation to face what lies within us without flinching.
The Five Points of the Knight
When Gawain rides forth from Camelot to seek the Green Knight, he carries upon his shield a golden star—the pentangle, or five-pointed knot—symbolizing the five virtues of a perfect knight: generosity, fellowship, chastity, courtesy, and piety. The poet writes that it is “a token of truth, by title that it bears, / For it is a figure that holds five points.” The unbroken line of the pentangle stands for wholeness, each virtue bound to the others in an unending circuit of moral harmony. Yet the poem itself is a record of that harmony unraveling. The five points are not static ideals but living tests; each is broken, re-forged, and reinterpreted through trial.
Lowery’s The Green Knight transforms those ideals into psychological thresholds. In his version, chivalry is not the measure of a man’s perfection but the veil through which he must see his imperfection. Likewise, Maggiori’s painting—its two white-robed riders ascending into the golden forest—seems to depict the aftermath of that process: the quiet wholeness that follows self-reckoning. What Gawain learns through failure, these pilgrims appear to embody through grace.
1. Generosity (Liberality)
In the medieval world, generosity represented the outward expression of inner virtue. To give freely was to imitate divine abundance. In Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, this virtue falters when Gawain accepts the green girdle and conceals it from his host. The act is small, almost trivial, yet it fractures his integrity. He gives gifts publicly but hoards privately, revealing the gulf between reputation and reality.
Lowery’s film magnifies this dissonance. Gawain’s generosity is performative. It is a performance of virtue rather than its embodiment. He seeks recognition, not righteousness. His acts of kindness are exchanges, each haunted by self-interest. The film’s austere tone strips generosity of its social glamour and reveals its spiritual root: sacrifice.
In Maggiori’s What Lies Within Us, generosity has evolved into a subtler form. The two riders share not possessions but pilgrimage. Their generosity is in companionship, the willingness to walk alongside another soul toward light. They give themselves to the landscape and, symbolically, to one another’s silence. The West, so often mythologized through conquest, becomes here a place of surrender.
2. Fellowship (Brotherhood)
In the poem, Gawain’s fellowship is with Arthur’s court. A bond of loyalty that defines his identity. Yet when he rides alone, that bond evaporates. His isolation exposes the fragility of a virtue dependent on social approval. Fellowship becomes meaningless in solitude.
Lowery’s Gawain experiences the same estrangement. He meets strangers who exploit or confuse him, and the forest itself becomes a kind of anti-community. Every human connection disintegrates into ambiguity. The film suggests that true fellowship begins only when the illusion of external validation collapses.
Maggiori’s painting offers a redemptive vision. The riders travel together, their forms nearly merging in the golden light. They are equals, neither leader nor follower. Fellowship here is not institutional but spiritual. It is the companionship of two souls moving in harmony toward understanding. In psychological terms, it symbolizes the reconciliation of opposites within the self, the integration of reason and intuition, shadow and light.
3. Chastity (Purity)
For the medieval poet, chastity signified moral and spiritual discipline, not merely sexual restraint. Gawain’s chastity is tested in Lady Bertilak’s chambers, where his virtue falters beneath the seduction of flattery and fear. His failure is not lust but deceit in his inability to remain whole in the face of temptation.
Lowery renders this scene with aching ambiguity. The film’s Gawain, trembling between desire and duty, reveals the human cost of repression. His chastity becomes a mirror of hypocrisy, exposing the fragility of virtue built on denial rather than understanding.
In Maggiori’s work, chastity transforms into purity of intention. The white robes of the riders evoke monastic simplicity. There is no tension, no spectacle of restraint. Their purity is not defensive but radiant. It is a state of alignment between outer action and inner truth. In their silence, chastity becomes authenticity: the undivided self walking toward light.
4. Courtesy (Compassion)
Courtesy, in the chivalric code, was the grace of conduct, the ability to honor others with humility and kindness. In Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, courtesy often masks pride; it becomes a ritual of appearances rather than a habit of the heart.
Lowery strips courtesy of its ornament. His Gawain moves through a world where politeness has no currency, where only compassion remains meaningful. His kindness to Saint Winifred’s ghost—a rare act without motive—becomes his most genuinely noble moment.
In Maggiori’s painting, courtesy expands beyond human society. The riders’ gentle movement through the aspen grove models compassion toward the world itself. Their courtesy is ecological, an awareness of belonging rather than dominion. The golden forest receives them as participants in, not masters of, its order.
5. Piety (Faith)
The fifth virtue, piety, is the spiritual foundation of all others. Gawain’s piety is sincere yet incomplete, rooted in fear rather than trust. His prayers in the poem are often transactional appeals for safety, not communion.
Lowery’s adaptation reinterprets faith as surrender. When Gawain finally kneels before the Green Knight, he relinquishes not his life but his illusion of control. “Now, little knight, off with your head,” the Green Knight says tenderly, as if offering absolution. In that moment, faith becomes acceptance.
Maggiori’s painting closes the circle. The riders, ascending into light, embody faith without dogma. There are no altars, no priests, no miracles. There is only the quiet conviction that the path itself is sacred. Their ascent suggests what Emerson called “the infinitude of the private man,” the faith that the divine is not external but immanent.
Together, these five virtues form an evolving geometry of the soul. In the poem, they are ideals fractured by human frailty; in the film, they become moral tests; in Maggiori’s painting, they resolve into harmony. The riders’ white garments gleam like the pentangle’s golden lines, unbroken at last. The virtues no longer radiate outward as performance, but inward as illumination. They are what truly lies within us.
The Forest as Soul
The forest has always been more than a place, it is the architecture of the inner world. In myth and art alike, it stands as the threshold where the rational dissolves into the mysterious. In Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, the forest into which Gawain rides is described as “a wilderness wild, where few had walked.” This wilderness is moral as well as physical: it is where certainty fails, where the map ends. To enter the forest is to accept disorientation as initiation.
In Jungian psychology, the forest corresponds to the unconscious. The forest is the domain of what is hidden, repressed, or forgotten. Jung wrote that “the forest is a symbol of the unconscious; the place where hidden forces dwell.” It is both danger and sanctuary, both chaos and creation. When Gawain ventures into its depths, he encounters more than beasts and bandits; he meets his own shadow. His armor and ideals, once emblems of order, become burdens. The further he rides, the heavier they feel, until his chivalric identity itself becomes the obstacle he must shed. His passage through the green wood thus mirrors the first alchemical phase, the nigredo: the darkening, the dissolution of form that precedes transformation.
David Lowery captures this descent with unflinching symbolism. In his film, the forest consumes light. Its palette of muted greens and earthen browns evokes the womb-like darkness of the psyche before rebirth. Gawain’s journey becomes cyclical, dreamlike; time folds upon itself, suggesting the recursive nature of self-examination. The Green Knight—half human, half tree—awaits him as the ultimate integration of opposites: nature and man, life and death, body and spirit. When Gawain kneels before him, it is not a gesture of defeat but of individuation. It is the acceptance of his mortality and, through it, his humanity.
If Gawain’s forest embodies the nigredo, Maggiori’s What Lies Within Us reveals the later alchemical stages: the albedo and rubedo, purification and illumination. His forest glows not with menace but with transcendence. The aspens shimmer in gold, as if touched by fire, their trunks pale and pure like candles in a sacred hall. The riders’ ascent is not into darkness but through light, a reversal of Gawain’s descent. Yet the psychological motion is the same: movement through the self toward unity. The difference lies in awareness. Gawain rides into the forest to prove himself; Maggiori’s figures enter it to understand themselves.
In the alchemical process, gold symbolizes the perfected soul: the lapis philosophorum, or philosopher’s stone. Jung saw in this symbol the completion of the individuation process: the reconciliation of conscious and unconscious, spirit and matter. Maggiori’s forest, therefore, is not merely autumnal; it is alchemical. The gold of the leaves represents integration, the moment when inner and outer light become one. The riders, cloaked in white—the color of purification—move through this golden light as if emerging from the crucible of experience refined.
The contrast between Gawain’s green forest and Maggiori’s golden one is not opposition but progression. Green, the color of life and flux, belongs to nature’s cycles: growth, decay, rebirth. It is the color of potential. Gold, by contrast, is the color of fulfillment, the final transmutation of experience into wisdom. One cannot reach gold without first enduring green. As Joseph Campbell wrote, “The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure you seek.” In Maggiori’s vision, that treasure has been found not as an object, but as serenity.
The forest, in both works, acts as the moral and psychological axis of the world. It absorbs the pilgrim’s fear and returns him to himself. In entering it, one consents to be unmade. Yet this unmaking is not destruction. It is the only path to integration. As Emerson observed, “In the woods, we return to reason and faith. There I feel that nothing can befall me in life—no disgrace, no calamity—which nature cannot repair.” Maggiori’s forest embodies that promise. The riders’ ascent through light is an act of trust, a serene acceptance of transformation’s inevitability.
Thus, the forest becomes not the setting of the quest but its destination. It becomes the self in its most expansive form. In Gawain’s green wood, the ego dies. In Maggiori’s golden wood, the soul endures. Both are stages of the same journey, bound by the eternal rhythm of descent and ascent, shadow and illumination, self and soul.
The Light Beyond the Trees
In Maggiori’s What Lies Within Us, the riders climb toward a brilliance that outshines the frame. The golden forest parts to reveal a horizon of pure light, an unpainted space that the viewer’s imagination must complete. That absence is deliberate; it functions as a visual silence, an artistic equivalent to the pause that follows revelation. The riders are almost there, their backs turned to us, already half-absorbed into radiance. Their journey, like Gawain’s, ends not in triumph but in transfiguration.
The Western landscape, long mythologized as the stage of rugged individualism, becomes in Maggiori’s vision an allegory of humility. The riders’ smallness is not a loss of power but the recovery of proportion. They are no longer the measure of the world; the world measures them. In this sense, Maggiori completes the moral arc begun by the Green Knight poet. Where Gawain kneels in repentance, Maggiori’s figures ride in peace. Both gestures are forms of surrender. Both the acceptance of human limitation before the immensity of being.
The light that envelops them recalls Emerson’s notion of the Over-Soul:
“We live in succession, in division, in parts, in particles. Meantime within man is the soul of the whole; the wise silence; the universal beauty.”
This “wise silence” seems to emanate from Maggiori’s forest. It is not the harsh illumination of revelation, but the diffused, merciful light of comprehension. The riders do not seek the divine; they dwell within it. The distinction between seeker and sought dissolves, as if they and the landscape share one breath.
Philosophically, this is the point of integration. It is the alchemical rubedo, the moment when opposites reconcile. Green and gold, trial and peace, death and renewal, they all collapse into unity. The Western horizon, once symbol of endless striving, becomes the emblem of return. As Jung might have phrased it, the self has become transparent to the soul. The journey through the forest—whether of Gawain’s terror or Maggiori’s serenity—was never toward something external, but toward this condition of inward clarity.
There is also a moral serenity to this ending. In the medieval world, Gawain’s confession restored his honor within the codes of knighthood. In Maggiori’s reimagining, redemption has no audience. The riders’ sanctity is quiet, witnessed only by trees and sky. Their virtue lies not in performance but in presence. As the aspens shimmer like hammered gold, their ascent becomes a benediction to the viewer: to live is to travel continually toward light, not to possess it.
Perhaps this is why the painting feels so still. Everything has already happened. The tests have been endured, the virtues broken and remade. What remains is peace. What remains is the simple, steady radiance that follows self-knowledge. Emerson wrote, “The invariable mark of wisdom is to see the miraculous in the common.” Maggiori captures that miracle: two riders on an ordinary trail, transfigured by the light of understanding.
As they near the forest’s end, the golden glow seems to dissolve them into the unseen. They are not departing but becoming. The forest—once threshold, now memory—lingers as both path and mirror. In them, we glimpse ourselves: imperfect travelers, moving through seasons of shadow and light, always seeking what lies within us.
Coda
As I reflect on Maggiori’s What Lies Within Us, I do not see the West or the Middle Ages; I see the long road of the self. Every forest, whether painted in gold or filmed in shadow, becomes a mirror. The riders and Gawain, the Green Knight and the aspens, all inhabit the same geography of transformation. They inhabit the inner wilderness where meaning is wrestled from silence.
Art, when it matters, performs this same alchemy. It does not teach by argument but by recognition. In Maggiori’s light I recognize the moment after struggle, that quiet sense of having been changed. In Gawain’s confession I recognize the difficulty of honesty, the humbling of pride. Both lead to the same clearing. Both lead to a space where the noise of striving fades and the self stands stripped of pretense.
Perhaps this is what Emerson meant when he said, “The soul becomes.” The becoming is never finished; it is a movement, a pilgrimage, a practice. To live is to ride toward that horizon again and again, knowing it will always recede. Yet each passage through shadow brings a little more light, each surrender a deeper peace.
The forest remains the ever-present threshold between who we think we are and what we might yet become. And somewhere within it, beneath the trembling leaves of our own unfinished selves, something luminous waits.
Friday, November 7, 2025
Religious, Not Spiritual: Q&A
Introduction
This series of essays began as an interview, a set of questions about belief, practice, and meaning, but it quickly became something more personal. Each response is a small meditation on what it means to live religious but not spiritual: to value ritual, community, and reverence without appealing to the supernatural. I wrote these reflections not to argue a position, but to describe a way of being. A position grounded in attention, honesty, and care.
I come from a world where faith was a language spoken fluently, where words like salvation and devotion carried the weight of eternity. I still carry that language, though I speak it differently now. These essays are my attempt to translate that inheritance. My way to show that the forms of religion can remain meaningful even when belief changes, or is lost altogether, and that reverence need not vanish with certainty.
Thursday, November 6, 2025
Allegory of the Self (1951)
Wednesday, November 5, 2025
November: The Throne of Glass
Theme:
Accepting the limits of one’s own understanding and transforming pride from defense into gratitude.
Quote:
“Pride buildeth a throne of glass, which the mirrour of truth shatters to dust.”
— The Mirrour Which Flatters Not



